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Discernment

I have learnt something new about discernment: it is important to have a realistic knowledge of oneself: abilities, gifts, skills, character and so on. So often, the enemy of the human promotes lowered self-worth and self-denigration sometimes, with particular subtlety, in the guise of spiritual humility; but it is damaging to think one is less … Continue reading Discernment →

Julian Maddock Discernment Leave a comment 13 July 200814 December 2019

Identity

An assertion: my identity — my sense of self, of me — is rooted in the sensations of this body. If these sensations change, e.g. during serious illness, or as the result of an accident (as happened to me when I was knocked off my bike and broke my arm), then my sense of who … Continue reading Identity →

Julian Maddock Body Leave a comment 4 July 200814 December 2019

Movements

There are two movements: outwards to the world — opening the pores of this body to sounds, sensations, the other, the Other — moving to an opening in and to love; inwards to this body and attending to this body's voice, in tenderness and interest. "Breathing in I go back to the island within myself." … Continue reading Movements →

Julian Maddock Prayer Leave a comment 3 July 200814 December 2019

Levels of Body Prayer

Relaxation Awareness of the breath Awareness of physical sensations Attend to the ‘stories’ this body has to tell, it's messages; learn to be at home Let this body tell you who you are Let this body be ((in) God) One never moves on from earlier stages, but one moves deeper into them as each new … Continue reading Levels of Body Prayer →

Julian Maddock Body, Prayer Leave a comment 27 June 200814 December 2019

What I learnt today

This body can be still even as the mind chatters away. Let this body do the praying.

Julian Maddock Body, me me me me me! Leave a comment 27 June 200814 December 2019

Falling in love

I was given this quote from Fr Pedro Arrupe, sj this morning. Nothing is more practical than finding God, that is, than falling in love in a quite absolute, final way. What you are in love with, what seizes your imagination will affect everything. It will decide what will get you out of bed in … Continue reading Falling in love →

Julian Maddock Pause for Thought Leave a comment 19 June 200814 December 2019

Going Home

This body will return to earth become one, again, with the round world: seep into soil, dissolve decay into richness life-giving dust, remnants of a kind flame, scattered motes of blown smoke collected by the smallest of creatures; water, the most of me, pattering outside a listener's window becomes Water of Life once more runs … Continue reading Going Home →

Julian Maddock death, poetry Leave a comment 17 June 200814 December 2019

Thomas and Friends

I was listening to a patient (RIP 7 June) this morning talking about how useless she feels just lying in bed all day without anything to do, feeling guilty that everyone is looking after her, being so kind, and that she can't help anyone in return. I was reminded of the stories of Thomas the … Continue reading Thomas and Friends →

Julian Maddock Being alive Leave a comment 30 May 200824 March 2020

How to pray

The anonymous, 14th century author of the Cloud of Unknowing gives this advice in chapter 3 on how to pray: This is what you are to do: lift your heart up to the Lord, with a gentle stirring of love desiring him for his own sake and not for his gifts. Centre all you attention … Continue reading How to pray →

Julian Maddock love, Prayer Leave a comment 21 May 200814 December 2019

Speckled Wood

I saw another butterfly on the way to the hospital — a speckled wood. I prepared myself for the possibility by bringing my camera and snapped it myself.

Julian Maddock Journal Leave a comment 9 May 200814 December 2019

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Praying Together

Since the first lockdown, I have been leading online prayer every week. I invite you to these prayer times on Zoom at 8.30 am every Monday and Wednesday. For more information, read “Praying together”.
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Julian Maddock

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I offer spiritual direction, training, and supervision. I am also a writer. I am based in Upper Teesdale, Co. Durham and (occasionally) West London.

Through kindly attention to the sensations of this body you can connect into a process of ever-deepening immersion into the reality of God at the heart of life.

I write here primarily about:
  • God, and how to foster your relationship with God;
  • prayer, and how to pray; and
  • how attending to this body is prayer and a way to be present in the Presence.

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A beginner’s guide

These links will give you a flavour of, and a way in to, what this body is all about:

  • Where to start?
  • Sitting
  • Starting at the bottom
  • Feeling into this body
  • Starting at the bottom (part 2)
  • Relax!
  • What is the senation of prayer? 10 steps to knowing God
  • The miracle of being nothing

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