You long for yourself.
Distractions are substitutes, looking for something to fill a hole, attempts at connection that ultimately disappoint.
Boredom is a gift – an invitation by now, to fundamental presence, presence in yourself and to yourself, presence in and to the world.
How might you embrace boredom?
- Stop: do nothing for now. (Doing nothing is always a possibility.)
- Notice the desire for distraction. Give it a moment. Be gentle with yourself.
- You might find it helpful to change the scenery. Take a walk. (P.S. See this.)
- Focus in on yourself – feel your way into this body, especially sinking down into your heart and your belly.
- Withdraw your anxious feelers of desire and expectation.
- Open yourself to the present moment, to what is around you, to the universe – to the rapture of being. (As I write this, there is a gentle rain. Here is a child-like pleasure to be had in watching the drops fall and run together, coagulate and run down the window-pane).
- Come home to yourself. Let this become a place that is familiar and safe.
You create a space “in which desire can crystallise.”
Now, what do you really (really (really)) want?