To care and not to care

I was given a lesson the other night. I woke up after a few hours sleep. I went to the toilet, and then lay in bed worried that I would not be able to go back to sleep, fearful of being awake in the empty dark. I don’t usually notice this feeling. I listen to … Continue reading To care and not to care

Sigh no more

Then sigh not so, but let them go,    And be you blithe and bonny, Converting all your sounds of woe    Into hey nonny, nonny. Shakespeare: Much Ado About Nothing People will often say that they can't pray. When asked they will say that they are unable to make their minds still or empty … Continue reading Sigh no more

Living with life’s ups and downs

When one enjoys consolation, let [her] consider how [she] will conduct [herself] during the time of ensuing desolation, and store up a supply of strength as defence against that day. Exx.323 He who enjoys consolation should take care to humble himself and lower himself as much as possible. Let him recall how little he is … Continue reading Living with life’s ups and downs

Embattled, not embittered

In recent years I have twice become deeply bitter about how I have been treated by others. I was certainly not without fault – and I was treated unjustly and with lack of kindness that hurt deeply. In both situations I became angry, and the hurt and anger transmuted into resentment and bitterness… Resentment is … Continue reading Embattled, not embittered

Emptiness

12 December 2015 I want to write about emptiness, loneliness, meaningless, and the apprehension of death. This is what I feel at the moment. But what to say? How to write about these feelings? I might say that there are days when I struggle these feelings. There are days when I wonder what my life … Continue reading Emptiness